Off the Cliff

I stepped off the proverbial cliff today, way out of my comfort zone.

I have no alarm to wake up to tomorrow.

I'm home with my children at 6:20 p.m. on a Wednesday evening, which hasn't happened in almost a year.

I have no idea what the future holds for me.

I've never felt better.

I am not someone who says yes all of the time out of conformity or fear. I'm an idea person. I need to make a contribution, even if that idea is not liked, used or preferred, all I ask is that it be considered. Maybe that's frustrating to the person who just wants a simple answer, but I'm always thinking, can I improve this? Can I make this better? Can I offer a compromise that makes more sense and is better for a larger number of people?

I've worked in many different environments and have been at the bottom.  At this point in my career, and I want a career, not a job, I feel I should not have to settle, should not have to be degraded, condescended to or treated like a number. I'm a person.  And if I find myself at the bottom, it won't be for long, and I need to know that.

I need to be in an environment that favors intellect, that nurtures growth, that promotes humanity and kindness.  I'm not afraid of challenge.  Maybe that's why I took this leap today, to challenge myself. To find a way back to myself. To navigate blindly down the path that will lead me someplace better.

I'm scared. I'm excited.

Hell, I'm unemployed.